Sorry in particular to my friend Kayla who has been working her arse off producing a documentary called Vincible about young adult cancer. I've been no help whatsoever. And another sorry in particular to Elliot who has been working his arse off setting up a charity in honour of my friend Rosie who died last year. I've been no help whatsoever.
Another sorry in particular to my friend Danielle who died a few weeks ago. I wanted to put in writing on this blog all about how amazing Danielle was. But I've not been able to face sitting down and writing another one of those posts. Maybe one day I will, but for now, just this: The Crazy Ones by Paloma Faith.
I'm also sorry to the people who have sent in blog posts for the Young Women's Breast Cancer Blog and had to wait ages for me to upload them.
Generally a big, massive sorry to everyone!
Getting cancer turned my life upside down, and at times it broke me. But I am lucky enough to be here now and I will never take it for granted. I'm 1 hair cut, 2 nipple tattoos, a lipofill, and a few months running and dieting away from being finished with fixing up (as best as will be possible) the mess that breast cancer treatment made of my body. The events of the last 19 months have probably changed me forever but I don't want them to be part of my day to day life any more. New me just needs to get settled in "new normal" life.
I'm going to put this blog to bed for a while, also the Young Women's Breast Cancer Blog. I'm leaving most of the online breast cancer groups I've been part of. I'll be unfollowing all the cancer accounts on Twitter and pages on Facebook. I'm not doing any more media stuff either hahahaha (soz Anne Robinson, soz!).
When I'm not working or sleeping, all I want to be doing is having fun with my amazing friends and boyfriend and dog. (BTW you should all expect me to be taking lots of photos. I need to replace all the ones around my house of me in that fucking wig.)
Lots of love, sorry again, and TTFN xx